summer fat camp?

im not sure I have been this sad/worried before!! my life is sucking ass right now...idk if its been this bad...idk like i used to have loads of confidence, and love jess (gf) with all of my self being...some how i just kept gaining weight...and idk how , im still doing all the things i was before, ive always beenover weight but not this much! and jess doesnt see me as fat, or gaining...but i feel it, ya know i just look differenent so ive been checking out these weight loss camps ..and im getting some info and borchures on them..the one i REALLY want to go to is in san diego ,and im in illinois! so there is a plane fee and extra baggage fee and itsh $25,000 for six weeks, i already got permission from my parents that the money isnt bad and they will pay for it, but they would like for me to really get healty and stick to it, and if i dont lose my goal (100 lbs) or gain more then i am now, in 2 years I will owe them the money back...so no PRESSURE! lol, I have to be completly sure Im going to stick with this and make a life choice, not just get away for a summer ya know...so i have some decesions to make. and prom is comming up and major decesions with that (april 18th) school is getting harder, and im trying to find a new job to save up for something, just money management instead of how to write down the money I take off my parents debit card..I just need to think things through..

oh and dont even get my started on my "old" friends, they are really like out of my life, but still annoying me! like they are just getting under my skin! SO CONFUSED!