RIP (Tom Green) a.k.a.

this is for me to vent and cry not for sympathy or judgement

im fine, i just need to chill and cry n then go 2 bed
i have a runny nose, n crying dont help, my feet n back hurt from work, imhungry, i have a headache from n hair 2 tight at work, nim behind on homework, have to work @ 4am-3-pm tmrw 4 my dad and 5pm-10pm tmrw n noon-4 mcdonalds, n sunday noon-3 for dad n 4-10 for mcdonalds, n well just alot of shit going on and i just want to cry about my neighbor
he waslik 76 or so, went to both wars, had 2kids all of out of state wife died whn he was 40, then met is current partner,(pat, she is a girl) they never got married or had sex ( 2 old) but they were sole mates and companions, they would come oveevery month for a fried fish thing, n thanksgivng , easter, n we would go over hter in storms in the begginn cuz they possibly woul of made tornados then
we wouldgo over almost every storm cuz he made it fun,and it was justa time to sit and visit with no v lights or nuthin just amazing n he would bring over there news papaer EVERY day for us, and it was just sooo nice and if we made like chilli or n e kind of soup we would take them sum to freeze or eat or w.e and they loved it and she would send the bown back with some desert or w/e and well
HE WAS UST A AMAZING MAN
i could talk forever about them
he would tll me crazy strories about old knoxville or history, and i swear i would listen more in one hour than all of m history teachers in 17 years, he wow...amazing

and i think now, how she is all alone just a glimpse to the away from me sitting in her kitchen and calling all of there family and crying and all alone, it is just what my g-ma went through but i was there to hold her hand and wipe her tears, oh how i wish i was with her, however step mom said she was handling it well earlier and she took her sum dinner for tonight and lunch for tmrw and she should just be alone for awhile

sorry for typos, im kinda bawling..

summer fat camp?

im not sure I have been this sad/worried before!! my life is sucking ass right now...idk if its been this bad...idk like i used to have loads of confidence, and love jess (gf) with all of my self being...some how i just kept gaining weight...and idk how , im still doing all the things i was before, ive always beenover weight but not this much! and jess doesnt see me as fat, or gaining...but i feel it, ya know i just look differenent so ive been checking out these weight loss camps ..and im getting some info and borchures on them..the one i REALLY want to go to is in san diego ,and im in illinois! so there is a plane fee and extra baggage fee and itsh $25,000 for six weeks, i already got permission from my parents that the money isnt bad and they will pay for it, but they would like for me to really get healty and stick to it, and if i dont lose my goal (100 lbs) or gain more then i am now, in 2 years I will owe them the money back...so no PRESSURE! lol, I have to be completly sure Im going to stick with this and make a life choice, not just get away for a summer ya know...so i have some decesions to make. and prom is comming up and major decesions with that (april 18th) school is getting harder, and im trying to find a new job to save up for something, just money management instead of how to write down the money I take off my parents debit card..I just need to think things through..

oh and dont even get my started on my "old" friends, they are really like out of my life, but still annoying me! like they are just getting under my skin! SO CONFUSED!